Just some feelings...

[fuzzywuzzy]

A blue bird....
It landed on my open palm
Tweeting contently
I stroke its head with my paw
My mouth starts to salivate
As my paw comes back from its head
My eyes are distracted
Blood is dripping down my claws
I turn back to the bird
It is now melting
It forms a pool of red

Feeling scared I drop it
Yet it stays there
A grin spreads accross my muzzle
Then a hearty laugh
I didn't know why I did

Turning my paw to my face
The red starts to boil
Scraping it off with a claw
It starts to shape

I lift my foot and smash it
Halting right after
I choke and cough
Blood running down my chin

A soft beat on my foot
Very vaint sound
It grows dimmer by the second
A shadow streaks past my sight
I thought it was red
Although it could be the blood dripping from my eyes

A voice calls to me
I answer back
Dropping to my knees
Opening my arms
I whisper, "Take me..."
Blood filled tears run down my fur
"All I want is someone. If that be death, then so be it."
I close my eyes tight
Ready for death

A light shake to my body occurs
The same voice, "Hey! You ok?"
I shake the voice away
Not wanting it so close
A stronger rocking to my body
"Hey! Wake up!"
I open my eyes
A soft glow comming from everywhere

I yell at the voice, "Why wont you let me die?"
I feel a slap to my face
"How can you die if you never existed?"

[fuzzywuzzy]

The first glance is nothing

I saw a picture hanging on my wall
I had no idea who this was
Should I get closer to see
No, I cant, I dont know them
This person is quite pretty though.

"Hello" I call out to it
I get nothing back
Slapping myself for talking to a picture
But it felt good to finaly talk
"How are you?"
Still nothing
It feels better than before.

Sitting down I explain my life
Never being this open
I want to shy away
Yet I am held still
Attracted to this picture.

I look away, afraid
Turnning back the picture changed
"Wow!" Was all I could muster
So much was different in it
I could see so well who it was.

How did this happen
It was like a doorway opened up
This pretty woman just became nothing I could explain
I was frozen still
Transfixed on her eyes.

Feeling light inside
I started to cry
"You have helped me so much."
Trying to look away, I couldnt
She held me there.

If all this wasnt enough
She got out of her picture
Picking me up in her arms
Nothing could be softer
The beat of her heart
The warmth of her skin

Looking back at her
I did not feel the need to look away


"Even if you never talked, what you have done....I cannot say. You offered your self to me, let me talk, and have been there for me. I find nothing more I need. I don't feel I can repay you for being so kind. All I have left is yours...Anything you ask, if I have it so shall you. But one thing you may have without asking is my love. Another you have, but take that aside. I hope you keep it close. For it cant take much more....."

[fuzzywuzzy]

Don't we all get caught up in what we want?

All my life I have wanted
All my life I have helped
Now I am stuck
I cant choose what to do next
I feel my life is a lie
I get a good thing, then I loose it.

I found it
Someone I want but cant have
Yet this is only part true
I have her, I have her like no other
I have opened myself to her
My heart beats, just as yours does.

If I have her in every way but the physical
I am happy
Eventualy we all die
If I had her in body, it will go away
Just like all life
Yes it would be great to have her
Yet her mind, personality, and soul are what I love.

Nothing can change her
No one can change her
She is herself in all her ways
Who could ask for more?

She cant leave me
Now that she is with me
Her impact is so deep
I cannot hold back how I feel
She may look at my heart whenever she wishes.

Never before has this happened
To me this is true love
No other form exists for what we can share
Words have no meaning
Thoughts are no more
It is just US
What we are, who we are, and how we are....

[fuzzywuzzy]

Sitting alone in the hole that is my life
Waiting for someone to find me
Why is it so boring
Darkness is my only friend
I cant even find a way to die.

I am told things will work out
So I still have hope
But it is going away
Just as fast as my heart is.

Poking the ground is fun
Even when it pokes back
It hurts, so I welcome the pain
All I do is laugh at it
I have felt worse.

As I lay down I feel a crack
I felt my heart finaly break
Pain has never felt so good
I know I am alive
That is the bad part.

I have made death my friend
We hang out daily
He likes me, now I cant die
Why should I live anyway
I find nothing to do
Everything is so boring
Why cant I have fun?

[fuzzywuzzy]

Why do I like blood?

Things always taste good
All things feel, in some way
I have a lust like no other
I have never taken it from someone
But I dream of it.

Different things come into play
It is arousing in ways
But satisfying in others.

The sharp inhale of breath as your teeth sink in
Warm, rich, red blood filling your mouth
A firey burn as it trickles down your throat
As their heart beats faster
You gag on the blood that is pumped

The satisfaction that both people are happy
Loving the fact that they are together
Reaching a new level of ecstasy
A bond is formed and forged stronger.

[fuzzywuzzy]

I know she enjoys swimming
It is cooling
I do not know him
Nor what he does
An event took place between them.

Standing near her pool
Looking into the mirrior
She dove in like a pro
But had to close her eyes.

The impact of water on eyes would hurt
So she kept herself blind
This was not of her bidding
For the water playes another.

Sinking down, eyes still close
Everything is dark
Trying to open her eyes,
The water is too cruel
Keeping them shut on her.

His hand comes forth and pulls her up and out
Finaly she may open them
Looking at him as if she saw for the first time in her life
The water was now gone
It was him and her
Nothing else

Look into his heart and you will find what you are looking for.

[fuzzywuzzy]

Many sounds cover this world
Only a few are matched by none
There is one I have never heard
Yet I hear it ringing in my ears

The sound of your heart
May it find what it is owed
The rain as it flows over your skin
I hear it like the voice of a goddess

Each note the rain drops
Will live and die in a single moment
The last drops to fall will be my tears


I cannot let such a beautiful sound die
Gladly I will bleed my body
As long as I see the end
But it shall not stop there
For my heart never stops beating for you....



I know I am young, as is my hear and mind.
Yet the question is the same, why do I feel this way?
I have frozen my heart, but no avail.
Your words will melt the hearts of all cold, as they did mine...
May you live well and stay safe.

My hear is here for your protection.